Now, a blogpost where your webmistress speaks her mind.
Looking back on the past two months, I realize how much crafting I'd actually done. (I'd add "over a short span of time", but short? I'm not entirely sure if that warrants "short." Does it?) One part of me tells me it's too much for my own good, and another part of me says blimey fantastic, you've done it!
I must admit I feel... humbled by all this. It's been a lot of work, the most work I've faced ever since I started crafting. I do feel overwhelmed, really.
I've had some rough spots, and I've occasionally had to tangle with my own self-doubt and self-criticism, and to be honest, I still do. The trick is to never give up, and never say die.
I think if I'm to take this crafting to an entirely new level, it's high time I wring out what hinders me from reaching my goals.
Poring over the last project blog post, it makes me breathe deeper and slightly faster just looking at all that. I think the load of commissions took me quite by surprise. I really wasn't expecting this exuberant a response from the people around me, much less from online friends and co-workers. But the response, the cheering, the commissions are there, and I will answer them the best I can.
Not I must. I will. Entirely different ideas altogether.
It's like wearing your first grand pair of high heels, and going for a walk in them for the first time. You feel all grown up and you want to face the world in them, but there's a part of you that' scared of taking a stumble in them. In the end, you still choose to straighten up, shoulders back, move best foot forward, and head straight on, because that's the only way to go.
Let me catch my breath and steady myself.
Update: the day after
Now I can finally step away from what I've written above and read it from an objective angle... Blech. Dramatic, much? Ang drama ko naman!
And now that's out of my system, it's back to puttering about at my own comfy pace. Ta-ta, hysteria.